So my last post was about co-workers being let go. It happened again last week. 5 more people were let go from the team I am on. The team is down to 14 contractors. On one of the other teams, every single one of the contractors, about 20, were let go.

So today being Monday I need to do my Not Me post. Head over to read MckMama’s post and others on Mr. Linky.

I was not secretly relived that I was not one of the ones that was let go because that would make me a nice so not person.

I did not do a little happy dance at the community mail box on Thursday when I got my new power adapter for my laptop. And I did not stay up until midnight on my laptop since I was so happy to be able to use it again. No, not me.

I did not play Da Blob on the Wii for so long last week that my hand was hurting from holding the controller. Not me, I am a mom not a gamer. I have better things to do than play the Wii for hours and hours.

I did not almost miss all of the swearing in ceremony on Tuesday because I was checking my email. No way that I would miss seeing history being made, even if I didn’t vote for our new President.

I did not go to Parent Teacher conferences on Wednesday and walk the whole building twice because I had the order of the conferences wrong in my head. I didn’t forget to bring the paper with me, so that would never happen.

I also did not have a really proud mama moment when I saw how well the kids did on their report cards. No, I wouldn’t want to brag about both of my girls making the A/B honor roll or about my 4th grader getting a 6 on a writing prompt (6 is a perfect score). Nope, not me.

I did not enjoy walking around Ikea store on Saturday without my kids because I just love to shop with my kids.

I did not forget to eat anything before leaving the house Saturday to go to Ikea with my friend. Because if I know if I do that I will get a really bad headache. So I was not in bed late Saturday afternoon laying on an ice pack, wishing I could cut my head off because it hurt so bad. Nope, not me.

I did not want to keep all of the pound cake that my step-mom sent home with me on Friday for myself, that would be selfish. Even if it was really yummy cake, I know how to share.

Well that is all I can think of for this week. I am getting some school work done tonight. Though right now I am enjoying listening to my middle one singing in the shower. She was just singing “Just another picture to burn” by Taylor Swift at the top of her lungs. My kids are just precious and I love all three of them!

So today was an interesting day at work. Never in my working life have I worked in an environment that you don’t know from one day to the next if you will have a job. I started this job with my eyes wide open to the fact that I am a contractor and the chances of getting hired on permanent were pretty slim. We were told less than 10% of the contractors get permanent positions.

So anyway things were going along very nicely until one day early in December when we were told that we had to take 10 days of Voluntary Time Off (VTO). If we didn’t take the days off then we would be let go and out of a job completely. So most of took the days. Some decided they had had enough and moved on to some other place. Thankfully I only ended up having to take 6 days as the week of Christmas call volume was a lot heavier then anticipated.

Now we are into January and I still have not worked a 40 hour week. Other teams were beginning to dwindle in numbers as people were being laid off. Then on Tuesday it was my teams turn. Our supervisor came in and told us that, “Today is my last day.” We were all a little shocked and a little sad. We liked our supervisor.

Today the cuts started. Around 3 or so one of my co-workers sent a message to the girls that sits two desks over from me. He asked her what her felings were about the meeting this afternoon. She had no idea what he was talking about. She asked me if had a meeting this afternoon. I didn’t know what she was talking about either. So then a little before 4 o’clock 4 of my team members left to go to the meeting.

And they never came back.

A little while later our new supervisor came in with a box and began to clear out the desks of the four people. That was hard to watch.

Then we get an email about changes for Monday and we see other names are missing from the list. All said and done 9 people were let go today. The sad thing is 5 of those people were on VTO today and I have a feeling that they don’t know that they have been laid off. I have a feeling that they will come into work on Monday and be called into a meeting and given the news. That makes me so very sad.

But it also make me grateful that I still have a job.

I am sending my resume out and looking for other opportunities (if you know of any, send them my way…lol). Today was just another reminder for me that we are not promised tomorrow. We have to live for today.

Now I am off to play the Wii with my kids. This has become our favorite thing to do.

I am not, no not me.

I did not try hard to hold back tears as I read this post today and then watched the picture slide show in that post. I am not that kind of a sappy person. Not me.

I did not miss my kids so much this past week that I prayed for the week to go by faster so that they would be home.

I did not miss church for the second week in a row and not really feel that guilty about it, not me, I as a former Minister’s Wife would NEVER do that.

I did not let my kids go swimming in January. Who does that?

I did not laugh at my brother when he was trying to do the Hula Hoop on the Wii Fit. I also did not laugh when my hubby began to video my brother. I wouldn’t do that, it is not nice to laugh at people.

I did not once today at work wish that these people that I deal with would actually read the paperwork we send them. If they did that, I would be out of a job, so I would never wish that, not me.

I did not for even just a minute consider just letting the kids fend for themselves for dinner tonight, no, I always cook for my kids.

I did not just give my husband a dirty look for pouring my drink out, Not Me.

Ok, so this concludes the Not me part of my post for today. I wanted to share something that occurred to me this morning as I drove to work. As I was driving the fog was still burning off and it was one of those moments when to me it seems af of the fingers of God are reaching down to touch us right where we are. And very fittingly the song on the radio was, of course I can’t remember which song it was but the words said something like, “Lord reveal yourself to me…” My first thought was the Lord really reveals Himself to us way more than we ever realize. The thing is we have to take the time and enregy to see it. I am not a big goal setter or resolution maker when a new year rolls around but one thing that I really am going to purpose to do this year is to pour myself into building relationships. I think that is one big thing that God is trying to get me to see, is that relationships are a vital part of life.

Happy Monday (I know the day is over but you get the point).

We welcomed our second child into our family. What a blessing she has been to us over the past 10 years. She is smart, funny and stubborn (I can’t imagine who she gets that from, no not me…lol). She is one of the most artistic people that I know. I know that the Lord has great things planned for her.

Bug, I just wanted to wish you a very Happy 10th Birthday!! I am sad that we could not be together on your birthday but I know that we will have a blast at your party next weekend. You are a very special little girl and I am so glad that I get to be a part of your life and watch you grow up into a beautiful young woman.

Ok on a not so sappy note, I am so glad that it is Friday!! The month of December seemed to drag by as far a work was concerned with all of the “voluntary” time off. I am ready to work a full 40 hours week and have the money in my bank account to prove it. The calls at work have been interesting and never dull so that does help the day go by faster. On a good note I did not get yelled at today. That is always a good thing.

Well tonight is my last night of eating dinner alone. My kids come home from my in-laws house tomorrow. The place has been so quiet without them home. I get two days to enjoy thme, then back to school and the crazy busyness of life.

Happy New year! I pray that you have a blessed year.

We stayed home last night, no kids. The kids are at my in-laws house for the week since they are out of school and we both work. The kids are having lots of fun swimming, going to the movies and such. But I miss them, the apartment is too quiet when they are gone.

I learned some sad news last night when hubby got home. A very dear man from our last church passed away this week. The visitation was last night. Even with all that was done wrong regarding that church, I would get in my car right now and drive up there to be at this man’s funeral. He was a very Godly man and the world was a better place with him in it. I used to weave baskets at the church and his wife was alwys there. They were the sweestest people that you could ever know. My heart is also sad because Mr. B has a son that is a missionary. The son and his family just started a new mission assignment at the beginning of 2008. I pray that the family was able to come home to say good-bye to their dad/grandpa.

Ok before I get a weepy again. I pray for me and my family that 2009 is our best year ever. We went through a lot in 2008, most of which I would never want to do again. I pray that we have all learned the lessons we needed to learn and that we can serve the Lord in 2009 in a way that is good and pleasing to Him.

I am not big on making resolutions. As one of the other bloggers that I read said, I am going to set a goal. One of my goals for 2009 is to blog much more regularly than I did last year. For me, as it is for so many people, my blog is an outlet for me to get my thoughts and feelings down so I can try to make sense of them. So I am going to be better about actually doing it this year.

Enjoy the first day of the new year. We are having a lazy morning. Hubby is playing the Wii. We are going to visit some family later and of course watch some football.